Time:10.01pm
date:03.April.2010
Location:Room 14...
Reckless....too reckless...don't want to know much...
Time:05.30pm
Location:On the way home....
Damn it!!...Uncle Jo came late again!!!...Gosh..feel like wanna crap off!!
Then...Wendy was behind me and piggy back on my behind.I was shocked and it was heavy.I look back..and she smiled at me.She looks like a little childish...kinda...so..I went to my room..and get rest.I told Wendy to help me a little...that is...make me a cup of good warm coffee.She nodded her head and smile again.I thanked her....and she went away....and I was relax..myself...and chat with my friends for a while.
Later....she came in..and I smell good taste of bittersweet.I ask her if she wanna share with me but she denied..so..I finish it.I told her it was marvelous!!I put my hand on her head..and we both laugh for a while and she told me to go and bath..cause.. just return to school...so..I does what she said.
Time:06.00pm
Location:Room 15...
After I finish bath....I went to my room and change.After that...she ask me to help her to do Yahoo E-mail account...cause...Hotmail account always jammed the line.So...I done for her...and the account is...emm...maybe I tell you one day...cause...here is not secured.
She kiss my cheek and tell me thanks.I also tell her welcome and my face turn red.Well...it's dinner now.
Time:08.00pm
location:Dining room....
We all had dinner together...and Miss.Landlady look at us...like smiling at us..and tell us..we both cute when seat together.I know...it's cute....hahaha...
Well....after dinner...I help Miss.Landlady wash the plates and bowl...then..I saw Sumi walk outside.I was a little worry...about her again...look at her...shy to talk..that is.
Then..after that...I hold Sumi shoulder and told her wait and tell her what happen..and she told me nothing...and went off.Wendy look at me...and I told her we must help Sumi.She agrees...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
Then...I take Wendy to her room...tell her to sleep early because...she need go to school tomorrow and her duty must done too.
So...looks like I blog kinda early too...cause...I wanna sleep early.I hope....Sumi will understand more about life in here....and also...we will help her...
To Be Continued................................
Benny Liew...............(I will help you..and we will support you,dear Sumi.............)...................................................
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
It won't happen again...
Time:11.04pm
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14...
It won't..and it will not...happen again.I will help you as I do...and my friends too...just in case...well,about today.....like a little things that a claw on your hand...hmmm....
Time:07.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up...and my head were spin drowsy...cause...last night...the question..why???I got the answer but...I can't answer it..still..why????
Well..I walk to the bathroom and wash myself...and look at the mirror.What if....then...I look back..it was a hope.I can answer it..still...hard and nervous.
I go back to my room...and change...
Time:08.30am
Location:Room 15...
After I change...I went to Wendy room..and tell her I going to church.She said she wanted to go but....her condition..still like that...but at least she's fine now...then..I ask Sumi..as she woke up earlier that I expected.I ask her if she wanted to join me to church...and she denied me...she just shake her head and said no...and went to the bathroom...sigh...looks like I had to go alone.
Ka Zi...was ready...and she sent me to church...
Time:08.55am
location:Church...
Today is not me teach the kids..it's another pastor.So...I just seat back..and talk to my youth for a while...about this Friday we'll going to Mentakab...I mean..the whole church in Pahang youth will be going.So...Wai Hong...our leader youth..tells me that he will know what to do as he plan.I ask Ying Yi too..as she know what to do next.
Time:11.20am
Location:Worship corner....
I was message worship so we all listen to it.It was boring but...I was stunted on Pastor Siew...that is Ying Yi mom...tell everyone about parents and child problem.Why..today child so ignore of their parents???Then..she said..."Let us pray and giving hope to our child"..and I saw everyone take their child..hugging each other...saying sorry..and I saw Ying Yi and Yi Ming....both sister...pray on their families..holding hands...four of them.Is this family...of truth???I guess...it is.I just look at them..and keep in my heart...
" I love you mom...dad...as I know...my heart...know in another place..I will always know you.."
Time:02.00pm
Location:On the way back....
Message finish...and I went to Ying Yi mom...tell her what does it feels to had a great relationship in family.She told me..."God decide us...He help us.."..and I know..he will.
Then...I call Ka Zi...and waited for her.
She arrived and she was a little clumsy cause....her hand got a little cut...sigh...what the???...
Time:03.00pm
Location:Room 14...
I went in to my room..and had a bath...after that...change..and finish.I was tired and sleepy so...I went in to Wendy room and check.She was okay..and online use her laptop.So...I just leave it...tell her to be okay.And I told her.."I'll meet you tonight later at 09.00pm"..as she smile at me and said yes!!
I close the door..and went in my room.I jump on my bed and lay down.And then...my eyes were closing..and falling asleep......
ZZZZZzzzzzzzz...............
Time:07.30pm
Location:Room 14....(still sleep????WHAT!!???)
I woke up late!!!And it was dinner!!!...Damn!!!!...I rush to the washroom and wash my face and went in fast to the dining room...and look at it..it was only Miss.Landlady,Sumi,Mui Mui,Ian,Nick and Wendy.I went in..and Miss.Landlady told me that dinner Uncle Jo will go and pack.So...we wait...and he arrives after a few minutes.
Time:08.50pm
Location:Garden site....
We all had rice noodle with Chinese garlic sesame sauce..which is good.And also...I thanked to Uncle Jo.Later....
After we all finish...I call Wendy...as everyone had gone to their room.I hold her hand...alone..and walk to the garden and told her...the answer of yesterday...
The answer is...I care about you and I like you because....you're inside beauty..and I wanna shared and spared it on my life..."..and she hug me tight...and I didn't put my hand at her back..just hold her head on side.She tell me..."Worry not"..and also...I promise this year..I will success...for everyone..and her...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
I just take her back to her room...and tell her to sleep early...cause...she had to go to school.I wish...I will.
Later...I mean..now...I was sure my one year duty will go on to my destiny...and I hope...it was it...my life is my destiny.
From now on...I will study hard...earn my meaningful life to my parents...to her...to my brothers and sister...and to my generation and so on...till forever the end.
And also....I hope...I will..go on..as I stand...and I will...till go on.My question.....has fulfill...and I know...for everytime...every year....every...generations...^^
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew..........(A promise is a promise...A lie is a lie............A fate is a fate......)............................
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14...
It won't..and it will not...happen again.I will help you as I do...and my friends too...just in case...well,about today.....like a little things that a claw on your hand...hmmm....
Time:07.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up...and my head were spin drowsy...cause...last night...the question..why???I got the answer but...I can't answer it..still..why????
Well..I walk to the bathroom and wash myself...and look at the mirror.What if....then...I look back..it was a hope.I can answer it..still...hard and nervous.
I go back to my room...and change...
Time:08.30am
Location:Room 15...
After I change...I went to Wendy room..and tell her I going to church.She said she wanted to go but....her condition..still like that...but at least she's fine now...then..I ask Sumi..as she woke up earlier that I expected.I ask her if she wanted to join me to church...and she denied me...she just shake her head and said no...and went to the bathroom...sigh...looks like I had to go alone.
Ka Zi...was ready...and she sent me to church...
Time:08.55am
location:Church...
Today is not me teach the kids..it's another pastor.So...I just seat back..and talk to my youth for a while...about this Friday we'll going to Mentakab...I mean..the whole church in Pahang youth will be going.So...Wai Hong...our leader youth..tells me that he will know what to do as he plan.I ask Ying Yi too..as she know what to do next.
Time:11.20am
Location:Worship corner....
I was message worship so we all listen to it.It was boring but...I was stunted on Pastor Siew...that is Ying Yi mom...tell everyone about parents and child problem.Why..today child so ignore of their parents???Then..she said..."Let us pray and giving hope to our child"..and I saw everyone take their child..hugging each other...saying sorry..and I saw Ying Yi and Yi Ming....both sister...pray on their families..holding hands...four of them.Is this family...of truth???I guess...it is.I just look at them..and keep in my heart...
" I love you mom...dad...as I know...my heart...know in another place..I will always know you.."
Time:02.00pm
Location:On the way back....
Message finish...and I went to Ying Yi mom...tell her what does it feels to had a great relationship in family.She told me..."God decide us...He help us.."..and I know..he will.
Then...I call Ka Zi...and waited for her.
She arrived and she was a little clumsy cause....her hand got a little cut...sigh...what the???...
Time:03.00pm
Location:Room 14...
I went in to my room..and had a bath...after that...change..and finish.I was tired and sleepy so...I went in to Wendy room and check.She was okay..and online use her laptop.So...I just leave it...tell her to be okay.And I told her.."I'll meet you tonight later at 09.00pm"..as she smile at me and said yes!!
I close the door..and went in my room.I jump on my bed and lay down.And then...my eyes were closing..and falling asleep......
ZZZZZzzzzzzzz...............
Time:07.30pm
Location:Room 14....(still sleep????WHAT!!???)
I woke up late!!!And it was dinner!!!...Damn!!!!...I rush to the washroom and wash my face and went in fast to the dining room...and look at it..it was only Miss.Landlady,Sumi,Mui Mui,Ian,Nick and Wendy.I went in..and Miss.Landlady told me that dinner Uncle Jo will go and pack.So...we wait...and he arrives after a few minutes.
Time:08.50pm
Location:Garden site....
We all had rice noodle with Chinese garlic sesame sauce..which is good.And also...I thanked to Uncle Jo.Later....
After we all finish...I call Wendy...as everyone had gone to their room.I hold her hand...alone..and walk to the garden and told her...the answer of yesterday...
The answer is...I care about you and I like you because....you're inside beauty..and I wanna shared and spared it on my life..."..and she hug me tight...and I didn't put my hand at her back..just hold her head on side.She tell me..."Worry not"..and also...I promise this year..I will success...for everyone..and her...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
I just take her back to her room...and tell her to sleep early...cause...she had to go to school.I wish...I will.
Later...I mean..now...I was sure my one year duty will go on to my destiny...and I hope...it was it...my life is my destiny.
From now on...I will study hard...earn my meaningful life to my parents...to her...to my brothers and sister...and to my generation and so on...till forever the end.
And also....I hope...I will..go on..as I stand...and I will...till go on.My question.....has fulfill...and I know...for everytime...every year....every...generations...^^
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew..........(A promise is a promise...A lie is a lie............A fate is a fate......)............................
Gazed moonlight in the night sky...
Time:12.35am
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
I never doubt it anymore than ever again...and the people I had know.As the rose fell on the ground,I collect and the rose fell of a sound.Well...today...
Time:06.20am
Location:Room 15.......
I woke up early to see her condition.I was afraid she will getting worse and I was kinda worry.So..I open her room door and see..she was sleeping..and I seat on her bedside..touching her forehead.It was cool down.So..I went to the dining room and take a wet cold towel to lap her head.
She haven't wake up yet and she was gaze up a little.Her eyes were blurry and look at me.I tell her to lay down and she did.I put the towel on her head and she hold my arm..asking me why am I so care about her...and I had nothing to say.It is my duty to take care of her.
Later...I told her to rest more and I will see her in the morning at 11.00am later...and she was asleep..silently...and my heart thinking...why??
Time:07.30am
Location:The garden site.....
I was outside and it was so cold but the star shines up and never warm.Am I stupid yet nor the answer of it can't be answer?
Later...I seat near the pond alone...facing up the sky...watching the sun rise from the edge of the mountain.It was beautiful and nice.I ever seen it once again...and hope so.
Then...Miss.Landlady had awake and she greets me..and ask me why am I alone.I told her I was here because I wanted to see the sun rise.Miss.Landlady also joined me and tell me about her past life on here...she told me:
"When she was young,her grandfather was the landlord here and take care of this place.And also...when his grandfather was young...when Japanese Communist invaded Raub..this place was his sanctuary and the safeties place from them until...the place had been burn down since year 1949.Miss.Landlady also told me that her father was meant to be the landlord but..he wasn't.It was meant to be her sister,that is why she and her sister was the landlady here.She wish her sister come back soon."
I put my hand at her shoulder and told her....."It was meant to be.I know...I know...you might be better use of it"..and she smile at me and give me a gentle hug.I told her not to worry...and it's her duty here.
I let go of her and tell her...."So...I gotta see Wendy"..and she smile at me...and tell me.."You and her move in being a great mean to us"...and I smile back and tell her all the best!!
Time:09.30am
Location:Corridor side....
I went to her room and she was still sleeping.I don't want to disturb her but I wanted to see her condition.She was okay so I want outside and seat on the corridor...looking at those trees where wind blew breezily.I look at the sun..and it's fading away...and the wind getting cooler....
It was breakfast.......
Time:10.00am
Location:Dining room...
Everyone was there except Wendy and Uncle Jo...as he went out no where.And Wendy was in her room..resting....
Mui Mui look at me..and I look at outside and everyone look down..while munching sandwich and salad.I ask Nick if he go anywhere later and he said he'll going to Kuala Lipis later and Ian will be going out with Ka Zi to buy their things.Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady will be at home with me and Wendyll.Ah Sun will going out with his friends later.
Looks like
Time:11.03am
Location:Room 15....
As I promise her.....I went to her room and check on her.Just in case not to wake her up.She look really tired and she could laugh with me a little.At least...then..i peel some fruits for her that Miss.Landlady gave me...that is pearl.I gave her one by one and gave her drink 100PLUS...
Later...she don't want to be alone and I had to spend my time in the room...so...I help her a lot of things.
Then...I bring my laptop to her room and online as we both hearing music and she was cool down a while and fell asleep again...oh God....==''
Time:06.00pm
Location:Still..in Room 15....too lacked!!
I was dozed off from 04.00pm to 06.00pm!????OH MY!!???
I never knew it and I look at her bed...she's gone.I look at the dining room...she was there..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady..cooking.Cooking what I guess???
Later.....
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room.....
We all had dinner but the boys not yet return.Ka Zi when out with his brother and Nick,Ian and Uncle Jo too.Sigh.......looks like I'm alone with Mui Mui,Wendy,Miss.Lamdlady and Ah Sun now...but...Sumi???...Is she okay???
Sumi had been silent for three days...and she look thinner now.I...I can help her but...then.....
When we all had dinner...Sumi close her face and cried.....and she always said.."Forgive me"..and I really don't know what happen.I hold her shoulder and ask her what happen.She was shocked...and scared.I look at her eyes...like my twins...as I remember...I...I can't do this no more.
She look at me and said..."Help me..."..and I guess she's in trauma.Miss.Landlady hold her and take her to her room...and we'll had no more mood to eat anymore.....and I was worry on Sumi..she was in big fear that she can't get.
Now......what should I do?
Later.....
Time:10.00pm
Location:Room 15.....
I look up...the moon shines yellow bright...like a dream.I ask Wendy if she wanna join me and she wanted.I take her to the pond site and ask Sumi to join us.
We both when to her room...and Miss.Landlady with Mui Mui were there with Sumi...and she seems to be okay now.I salute her and pray for her....not to scared anymore.Later...we both had to go..and I let go of they three...wish Sumi...in happiness.
While then.....
Time:11.00pm
Location:The garden site.....
We both talk about life...as she cuddle me from the side...and my life were inside her heart as I ever know.I told her about friendship...life..and what went on now.She just listen to me...and Sumi...Oh Gosh...wish we could help her.....
Then....the moon rise slowly and the stars...was very little.I can see everyone of it.And my hand...was freeze...
Law were sleeping in my room all I know he knows how to do is sleep and eat.....==''
Later.....
Time:12.10am....
Location:Room 15....
I send her back to her room...and tell her to rest.I put her on bed and I didn't kiss her forehead yet.I hope...I'll help her.I lay her down...and let go...and close the door and look at Sumi room door.I understand how is the feeling if we lost the love one.
Later....
Time:Now..............
Location:Room 14..........
I was alone in my room.....looking the moon myself at the window and look at my life.Was I too sad or....was I????
Sumi...wish we understand us too and about you...we just like you..who lost a brother.Hope...I know what is meant to be.
And also....now....my tears still flows.....and my heart...sad....hurt...like use to be....when her gone.
I hope...I could help everyone.
And hope....................................is fragile..................
To Be Continued...............................
Benny Liew................(What has meant to be a hope???Is it...fragile????Or is it........simple..)..............................
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
I never doubt it anymore than ever again...and the people I had know.As the rose fell on the ground,I collect and the rose fell of a sound.Well...today...
Time:06.20am
Location:Room 15.......
I woke up early to see her condition.I was afraid she will getting worse and I was kinda worry.So..I open her room door and see..she was sleeping..and I seat on her bedside..touching her forehead.It was cool down.So..I went to the dining room and take a wet cold towel to lap her head.
She haven't wake up yet and she was gaze up a little.Her eyes were blurry and look at me.I tell her to lay down and she did.I put the towel on her head and she hold my arm..asking me why am I so care about her...and I had nothing to say.It is my duty to take care of her.
Later...I told her to rest more and I will see her in the morning at 11.00am later...and she was asleep..silently...and my heart thinking...why??
Time:07.30am
Location:The garden site.....
I was outside and it was so cold but the star shines up and never warm.Am I stupid yet nor the answer of it can't be answer?
Later...I seat near the pond alone...facing up the sky...watching the sun rise from the edge of the mountain.It was beautiful and nice.I ever seen it once again...and hope so.
Then...Miss.Landlady had awake and she greets me..and ask me why am I alone.I told her I was here because I wanted to see the sun rise.Miss.Landlady also joined me and tell me about her past life on here...she told me:
"When she was young,her grandfather was the landlord here and take care of this place.And also...when his grandfather was young...when Japanese Communist invaded Raub..this place was his sanctuary and the safeties place from them until...the place had been burn down since year 1949.Miss.Landlady also told me that her father was meant to be the landlord but..he wasn't.It was meant to be her sister,that is why she and her sister was the landlady here.She wish her sister come back soon."
I put my hand at her shoulder and told her....."It was meant to be.I know...I know...you might be better use of it"..and she smile at me and give me a gentle hug.I told her not to worry...and it's her duty here.
I let go of her and tell her...."So...I gotta see Wendy"..and she smile at me...and tell me.."You and her move in being a great mean to us"...and I smile back and tell her all the best!!
Time:09.30am
Location:Corridor side....
I went to her room and she was still sleeping.I don't want to disturb her but I wanted to see her condition.She was okay so I want outside and seat on the corridor...looking at those trees where wind blew breezily.I look at the sun..and it's fading away...and the wind getting cooler....
It was breakfast.......
Time:10.00am
Location:Dining room...
Everyone was there except Wendy and Uncle Jo...as he went out no where.And Wendy was in her room..resting....
Mui Mui look at me..and I look at outside and everyone look down..while munching sandwich and salad.I ask Nick if he go anywhere later and he said he'll going to Kuala Lipis later and Ian will be going out with Ka Zi to buy their things.Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady will be at home with me and Wendyll.Ah Sun will going out with his friends later.
Looks like
Time:11.03am
Location:Room 15....
As I promise her.....I went to her room and check on her.Just in case not to wake her up.She look really tired and she could laugh with me a little.At least...then..i peel some fruits for her that Miss.Landlady gave me...that is pearl.I gave her one by one and gave her drink 100PLUS...
Later...she don't want to be alone and I had to spend my time in the room...so...I help her a lot of things.
Then...I bring my laptop to her room and online as we both hearing music and she was cool down a while and fell asleep again...oh God....==''
Time:06.00pm
Location:Still..in Room 15....too lacked!!
I was dozed off from 04.00pm to 06.00pm!????OH MY!!???
I never knew it and I look at her bed...she's gone.I look at the dining room...she was there..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady..cooking.Cooking what I guess???
Later.....
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room.....
We all had dinner but the boys not yet return.Ka Zi when out with his brother and Nick,Ian and Uncle Jo too.Sigh.......looks like I'm alone with Mui Mui,Wendy,Miss.Lamdlady and Ah Sun now...but...Sumi???...Is she okay???
Sumi had been silent for three days...and she look thinner now.I...I can help her but...then.....
When we all had dinner...Sumi close her face and cried.....and she always said.."Forgive me"..and I really don't know what happen.I hold her shoulder and ask her what happen.She was shocked...and scared.I look at her eyes...like my twins...as I remember...I...I can't do this no more.
She look at me and said..."Help me..."..and I guess she's in trauma.Miss.Landlady hold her and take her to her room...and we'll had no more mood to eat anymore.....and I was worry on Sumi..she was in big fear that she can't get.
Now......what should I do?
Later.....
Time:10.00pm
Location:Room 15.....
I look up...the moon shines yellow bright...like a dream.I ask Wendy if she wanna join me and she wanted.I take her to the pond site and ask Sumi to join us.
We both when to her room...and Miss.Landlady with Mui Mui were there with Sumi...and she seems to be okay now.I salute her and pray for her....not to scared anymore.Later...we both had to go..and I let go of they three...wish Sumi...in happiness.
While then.....
Time:11.00pm
Location:The garden site.....
We both talk about life...as she cuddle me from the side...and my life were inside her heart as I ever know.I told her about friendship...life..and what went on now.She just listen to me...and Sumi...Oh Gosh...wish we could help her.....
Then....the moon rise slowly and the stars...was very little.I can see everyone of it.And my hand...was freeze...
Law were sleeping in my room all I know he knows how to do is sleep and eat.....==''
Later.....
Time:12.10am....
Location:Room 15....
I send her back to her room...and tell her to rest.I put her on bed and I didn't kiss her forehead yet.I hope...I'll help her.I lay her down...and let go...and close the door and look at Sumi room door.I understand how is the feeling if we lost the love one.
Later....
Time:Now..............
Location:Room 14..........
I was alone in my room.....looking the moon myself at the window and look at my life.Was I too sad or....was I????
Sumi...wish we understand us too and about you...we just like you..who lost a brother.Hope...I know what is meant to be.
And also....now....my tears still flows.....and my heart...sad....hurt...like use to be....when her gone.
I hope...I could help everyone.
And hope....................................is fragile..................
To Be Continued...............................
Benny Liew................(What has meant to be a hope???Is it...fragile????Or is it........simple..)..............................
Saturday, May 1, 2010
La vie En Rose......(Life Shade as Rose)......
Eyes that gaze into mine,
A smile that is lost on his lips,
That is the unretouched portrait,
Of the man to whom I belong.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason.
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.
In endless nights of love,
A great delight that comes about,
The pains and bothers are banished,
Happy, happy to die of love.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason,
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.....................................................
(From Edith Piath,1991).................
A smile that is lost on his lips,
That is the unretouched portrait,
Of the man to whom I belong.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason.
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.
In endless nights of love,
A great delight that comes about,
The pains and bothers are banished,
Happy, happy to die of love.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason,
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.....................................................
(From Edith Piath,1991).................
Friday, April 30, 2010
Worry of my dear....(Smile)
Time:12.00am
date:01.May.2010
Location:Room 15....
I didn't know now it was May...and this year will going fast.I hope...I can turn back..but..we can't...cause...it's time.
Today....it was chill...
Time:09.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up..and I know..she had fever again..so,I not going to school and take care of her.Yesterday night..I didn't dream a thing.Just cool and chill off..
I went to the bathroom and clean up..after that..change my cloth.Then...I open Wendy room..look inside and see if she still sleeping...and she still.I touch her forehead and still a little hot...kinda warm.I just pray for her and walk out the door.
Miss.Landlady and Ka Zi woke up and went to the kitchen..so,I went to the kitchen..ask Miss.Landlady if she got any "panadols".She gave me two and I thanked her.I went back to her room..and she was awake.I got a bottle of mineral water and two panadols...her eyes were blur so I just help her up.She try too but can't...and she feels like wanna sleep back.So..I let her seat and rest.
Time:10.00am
Location:Room 15....
She was okay..and I gave her medicine..and a water.She try to hug me aside but...she really really fell asleep.Can't think a second I lay her down and blanket her.I was so worry.
Later.....I plan to take her to clinic later..and hopefully I got a better cure for her.
So...I went to the garden site and seat down...rest and look up...thinking...and holding the ring I got.
Then...I saw Ian and Mui Mui..walking aside...they saw me and greet me.I just wave my hand.
I walk back to my room..and rest...on the alarm at 01.30pm...and later I wanna take Wendy to clinic.I ask Ka Zi and she told me she will take us there.
Then...I had to rest..and sleep....and mind thinking.......
ZZZZzzzzzzzzzz......................................
Time:01.20pm
Location:Room 14...
Woke up late....a bit...then..I went to her room...........told Wendy to wake up....pull her up and take her.Told her to change and she did..but very slowly.She just finish and Ka Zi ready her car.
I had to piggy back her....and put her in the car.
Then....
"Clinic Ragavan"...I told Ka Zi...
Time:02.00pm
Location:Clinic....
I bring her to the doctor and then...he treat her..and told us she had suffer of hot and cold temperature fever.She cannot stand hot for sometimes.So..the doctor had to inject her some medicine and gave us medicine.I had to pay...and it's for her.
Later...Ka Zi ask me her condition...and she was okay.I was a little worry...and her hands were with me...as I always do.
Time:05.30pm
Location:Room 15....
I was in her room...she was online and talk with her friends for a moment...in Facebook and I was happy to know she was okay now...a little...and I smile at her,as she was smile at me too and thanked me.It was my responsibility like I promise to her parents a month ago.
Later....she wanna rest for a while and her heart beating were cool down..as I touch her heart side...and I know...she'll be fine.
Time:08.00pm
Location:Dining room........
Later...Nick call us and it's dinner...Wendy looks like wanna take a meal..so...she can heal up and go on.
I had to carry her a side and help her a little.
Miss.Landlady ask us about her condition and she said she'll fine.I hope she'll fine as fast as possible.Mui Mui help her and gave her vegetable too.
She smile at her and thanked her...and I like when she smiles....her sweet smiles.
Later...I told Mui Mui carry her to her room and told her to wait for me...so..I help Miss.Landlady clean the table..wash the plates and cups...then...the spoon and fork too.Miss.Landlady thanked me but...I should thanked her.I hold her shoulder..and said.."You been a good care of us...and I should be thankful"........she just smile at me.
Later....
Time:11.00pm
Location:Room 15........
I went in her room..help her...talk to her and laugh...about our life when we were young..and still remember about it.Then...Law barked twice and look at us.Wendy shook it's head and I hug it up.It lick my face and look at us both.She said.."You both look cute and she take a photo...of us three...we three were seating and Law were looking infront.It was a perfect shot!!Tomorrow I will frame it.Then...Law went under the bed and sleep...like little lazy dog puppy..hahaha....
Then...she wanna rest too...so,I blanket her..hold her hand and close our eyes,pray for us and kiss her forehead...and say "See ya"..as I walk outside.She look at me..and I close the door.I really love her...but...this time..it would be.
Time:Now......
location:Room 14............
I online and look sadly....and remember a song....it's about smile...and the title is SMILE....
Smile though your heart is aching,
Smile even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky,
You'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by,
If you smile,
And maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile...............
(For you...all..my dears....)
Hopefully she will be as always...smile...in my warm heart...
Now...I look infront of my laptop...holding the ring....and hopefully she will be fine...and Miss.Landlady too...hopefully she will be chill always from busy.
Well....looks like I got to end now.and Wendy....smile always...and be chill...
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew.............(Smile...as if you just smile..and my heart will feel warm)..................
date:01.May.2010
Location:Room 15....
I didn't know now it was May...and this year will going fast.I hope...I can turn back..but..we can't...cause...it's time.
Today....it was chill...
Time:09.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up..and I know..she had fever again..so,I not going to school and take care of her.Yesterday night..I didn't dream a thing.Just cool and chill off..
I went to the bathroom and clean up..after that..change my cloth.Then...I open Wendy room..look inside and see if she still sleeping...and she still.I touch her forehead and still a little hot...kinda warm.I just pray for her and walk out the door.
Miss.Landlady and Ka Zi woke up and went to the kitchen..so,I went to the kitchen..ask Miss.Landlady if she got any "panadols".She gave me two and I thanked her.I went back to her room..and she was awake.I got a bottle of mineral water and two panadols...her eyes were blur so I just help her up.She try too but can't...and she feels like wanna sleep back.So..I let her seat and rest.
Time:10.00am
Location:Room 15....
She was okay..and I gave her medicine..and a water.She try to hug me aside but...she really really fell asleep.Can't think a second I lay her down and blanket her.I was so worry.
Later.....I plan to take her to clinic later..and hopefully I got a better cure for her.
So...I went to the garden site and seat down...rest and look up...thinking...and holding the ring I got.
Then...I saw Ian and Mui Mui..walking aside...they saw me and greet me.I just wave my hand.
I walk back to my room..and rest...on the alarm at 01.30pm...and later I wanna take Wendy to clinic.I ask Ka Zi and she told me she will take us there.
Then...I had to rest..and sleep....and mind thinking.......
ZZZZzzzzzzzzzz......................................
Time:01.20pm
Location:Room 14...
Woke up late....a bit...then..I went to her room...........told Wendy to wake up....pull her up and take her.Told her to change and she did..but very slowly.She just finish and Ka Zi ready her car.
I had to piggy back her....and put her in the car.
Then....
"Clinic Ragavan"...I told Ka Zi...
Time:02.00pm
Location:Clinic....
I bring her to the doctor and then...he treat her..and told us she had suffer of hot and cold temperature fever.She cannot stand hot for sometimes.So..the doctor had to inject her some medicine and gave us medicine.I had to pay...and it's for her.
Later...Ka Zi ask me her condition...and she was okay.I was a little worry...and her hands were with me...as I always do.
Time:05.30pm
Location:Room 15....
I was in her room...she was online and talk with her friends for a moment...in Facebook and I was happy to know she was okay now...a little...and I smile at her,as she was smile at me too and thanked me.It was my responsibility like I promise to her parents a month ago.
Later....she wanna rest for a while and her heart beating were cool down..as I touch her heart side...and I know...she'll be fine.
Time:08.00pm
Location:Dining room........
Later...Nick call us and it's dinner...Wendy looks like wanna take a meal..so...she can heal up and go on.
I had to carry her a side and help her a little.
Miss.Landlady ask us about her condition and she said she'll fine.I hope she'll fine as fast as possible.Mui Mui help her and gave her vegetable too.
She smile at her and thanked her...and I like when she smiles....her sweet smiles.
Later...I told Mui Mui carry her to her room and told her to wait for me...so..I help Miss.Landlady clean the table..wash the plates and cups...then...the spoon and fork too.Miss.Landlady thanked me but...I should thanked her.I hold her shoulder..and said.."You been a good care of us...and I should be thankful"........she just smile at me.
Later....
Time:11.00pm
Location:Room 15........
I went in her room..help her...talk to her and laugh...about our life when we were young..and still remember about it.Then...Law barked twice and look at us.Wendy shook it's head and I hug it up.It lick my face and look at us both.She said.."You both look cute and she take a photo...of us three...we three were seating and Law were looking infront.It was a perfect shot!!Tomorrow I will frame it.Then...Law went under the bed and sleep...like little lazy dog puppy..hahaha....
Then...she wanna rest too...so,I blanket her..hold her hand and close our eyes,pray for us and kiss her forehead...and say "See ya"..as I walk outside.She look at me..and I close the door.I really love her...but...this time..it would be.
Time:Now......
location:Room 14............
I online and look sadly....and remember a song....it's about smile...and the title is SMILE....
Smile though your heart is aching,
Smile even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky,
You'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by,
If you smile,
And maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile...............
(For you...all..my dears....)
Hopefully she will be as always...smile...in my warm heart...
Now...I look infront of my laptop...holding the ring....and hopefully she will be fine...and Miss.Landlady too...hopefully she will be chill always from busy.
Well....looks like I got to end now.and Wendy....smile always...and be chill...
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew.............(Smile...as if you just smile..and my heart will feel warm)..................
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Can't stop what happen actually...
Time:11.24pm
Date:29.April.2010
Location:Room 14...
I dreamed again last night..and still,the same.Can't really know what's going on now..and my head spin where I go round and round.Well....
Last night....
Time:Between 12.30am..
Location:Corridor...
Wendy and me were seating at the corridor...looking up...where the white moon shines.Still remind me..that...heresy.But who cares....and who does?
I talk to Wendy about study life where we want to go on if we success but she said that success is a hope where is lies under your destiny.I understand that.Thanks...
Then....her eyes were wanted to sleep..so,I had to piggy back her...and put her to bed.I blanket her and told her to sleep well...and kiss her head and sleep on her sofa...with my big blanket.
ZZzzzzzzz..............
Time:05.00am
Location:Room 15...
I though I put my alarm at 05.50am but...she wake me up at 05.00am...it still so early so,I decided to iron my cloths and prepare everything for school.Miss.Landlady wake up earliest...and she prepare breakfast to everyone.I ate bread with jellybeans..and sweet.Thanks....to you,Miss.Landlady...
Time:06.30am
Location:On the way....to school...
Ka Zi send us to school and she wanted to go work earlier.I don't know she had a job.
Don't want to know....about my 8 hours crap plus 3 hours of academics.As usual...help Riby..study....see left and right...thinking...and this!??...GOSH!!!..
Time:05.20pm
Location:SMKTK canteen
Waited for Uncle Jo...he arrives late again..feel like wanna break his fishing rod but nevermind...I don't care...and I hope so.
While on the way home..Uncle Jo tell me that Wendy is sick.I was shocked!!!Really???And he said "Yes".
Location:Home...
Time:06.00pm
I rush to my room...take my shower and change...then..I meet Wendy...she was weak.Oh no...it's all my fault..came home late...
Then...ask her..if she is okay..and she said she was fine.I know..she needed someone accompany her...and she was asleep.
Later...I went into my room..feeling disappointed of myself.What have I done??...sigh...then..on my laptop...chat with Riby...about the bluetooth device...not bluetooth detector....and see if does really can install to her laptop...and it does.
Later...she call me...and I went to her room...bring warm water.She don't want it..and I hold her hand.She was okay..still can laugh with me.
Later....I also feeling sleepy and I pray for her...heal...
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room...
Mui Mui ask me if Wendy is alright...and I hold her shoulder said.."She'll be fine".Mui Mui just look down...and tell me she was not well in school also.Must'a be the hot weather.
Sigh..........
I didn't eat dinner...just enjoy a little soup..and take a bowl of hot soup to her room...
Time:08.12pm
Location:Room 15...
I know she hungry...so,I bring hot soup and rice to her room.I take the spoon..feed her a little by little...making me worry and worse is...it touch me.Remind..me...I..can't do it.I look at her...and she smile at me...still...I..sigh....I just stand my cries behind...not to cry...and I try...
Later....she wanted to rest...but to hear music too...so,I bring my mini speaker and on in her room..hopefully my pendrives still enough memory..well..it does.
She hearing it sweetly..and I look at her...kiss her head and told her go sleep...and let go....she really really does remind me one thing.
Time:Now.....
Location:Room 14....
I went out for a while...seat at the pond alone..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady...talking about her health condition...they both really worry.I also...and they both...ask me.."Ben..Wendy hope is yours"..and my face were blush.Mui Mui laugh and tease us.I stop her...then..it was late.Mui Mui had to sleep early..so..I tell her to sleep early and Miss.Landlady want to rest too...so..they gone for themselves.
I went to my room...online...blogging here...and prepare my cloths..looking back...and hopefully she'll be fine.
I pray just now...and my tears drip one by one..can't really stand.Look at it also...can't feel what is happiness for 10 times.Oh...hopeful my hope.
Well...I had to end here...my tears were stop..still cool...try to chill too.Well..I read my books for a while and look at my laptop...hearing music.
Well...looks like I had to end here...and see you all...later...maybe....and Wendy...sleep well..and also...hopefully you'll be fine and be school next week.
To Be Continued............................................
Benny Liew........(I pray you pink,health and good wealth...and also...I love you doesn't enough at all...)..................................................
Date:29.April.2010
Location:Room 14...
I dreamed again last night..and still,the same.Can't really know what's going on now..and my head spin where I go round and round.Well....
Last night....
Time:Between 12.30am..
Location:Corridor...
Wendy and me were seating at the corridor...looking up...where the white moon shines.Still remind me..that...heresy.But who cares....and who does?
I talk to Wendy about study life where we want to go on if we success but she said that success is a hope where is lies under your destiny.I understand that.Thanks...
Then....her eyes were wanted to sleep..so,I had to piggy back her...and put her to bed.I blanket her and told her to sleep well...and kiss her head and sleep on her sofa...with my big blanket.
ZZzzzzzzz..............
Time:05.00am
Location:Room 15...
I though I put my alarm at 05.50am but...she wake me up at 05.00am...it still so early so,I decided to iron my cloths and prepare everything for school.Miss.Landlady wake up earliest...and she prepare breakfast to everyone.I ate bread with jellybeans..and sweet.Thanks....to you,Miss.Landlady...
Time:06.30am
Location:On the way....to school...
Ka Zi send us to school and she wanted to go work earlier.I don't know she had a job.
Don't want to know....about my 8 hours crap plus 3 hours of academics.As usual...help Riby..study....see left and right...thinking...and this!??...GOSH!!!..
Time:05.20pm
Location:SMKTK canteen
Waited for Uncle Jo...he arrives late again..feel like wanna break his fishing rod but nevermind...I don't care...and I hope so.
While on the way home..Uncle Jo tell me that Wendy is sick.I was shocked!!!Really???And he said "Yes".
Location:Home...
Time:06.00pm
I rush to my room...take my shower and change...then..I meet Wendy...she was weak.Oh no...it's all my fault..came home late...
Then...ask her..if she is okay..and she said she was fine.I know..she needed someone accompany her...and she was asleep.
Later...I went into my room..feeling disappointed of myself.What have I done??...sigh...then..on my laptop...chat with Riby...about the bluetooth device...not bluetooth detector....and see if does really can install to her laptop...and it does.
Later...she call me...and I went to her room...bring warm water.She don't want it..and I hold her hand.She was okay..still can laugh with me.
Later....I also feeling sleepy and I pray for her...heal...
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room...
Mui Mui ask me if Wendy is alright...and I hold her shoulder said.."She'll be fine".Mui Mui just look down...and tell me she was not well in school also.Must'a be the hot weather.
Sigh..........
I didn't eat dinner...just enjoy a little soup..and take a bowl of hot soup to her room...
Time:08.12pm
Location:Room 15...
I know she hungry...so,I bring hot soup and rice to her room.I take the spoon..feed her a little by little...making me worry and worse is...it touch me.Remind..me...I..can't do it.I look at her...and she smile at me...still...I..sigh....I just stand my cries behind...not to cry...and I try...
Later....she wanted to rest...but to hear music too...so,I bring my mini speaker and on in her room..hopefully my pendrives still enough memory..well..it does.
She hearing it sweetly..and I look at her...kiss her head and told her go sleep...and let go....she really really does remind me one thing.
Time:Now.....
Location:Room 14....
I went out for a while...seat at the pond alone..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady...talking about her health condition...they both really worry.I also...and they both...ask me.."Ben..Wendy hope is yours"..and my face were blush.Mui Mui laugh and tease us.I stop her...then..it was late.Mui Mui had to sleep early..so..I tell her to sleep early and Miss.Landlady want to rest too...so..they gone for themselves.
I went to my room...online...blogging here...and prepare my cloths..looking back...and hopefully she'll be fine.
I pray just now...and my tears drip one by one..can't really stand.Look at it also...can't feel what is happiness for 10 times.Oh...hopeful my hope.
Well...I had to end here...my tears were stop..still cool...try to chill too.Well..I read my books for a while and look at my laptop...hearing music.
Well...looks like I had to end here...and see you all...later...maybe....and Wendy...sleep well..and also...hopefully you'll be fine and be school next week.
To Be Continued............................................
Benny Liew........(I pray you pink,health and good wealth...and also...I love you doesn't enough at all...)..................................................
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