Time:09.55pm
Date:05.May.2010
Location:Room 14...
I was tired...feeling tired indeed and my eyes...were tearing up.Can't think what I want...to do now.By the way..what am I??
Time:05.40am
Location:Room 14...
She wake me up and my cloth were ready...and I had a bath and change.I look at Sumi room and Wendy hold my hand that time...tell me..."What should we do?"...
I just blew a deep sigh...and tell her that I'm ready...to go school.Miss.Landlady came out and she look very cute in her school dress.I told her study hard and she reply.."I WILL!!!"
Next....Ka Zi bring us to school....and I look at her eyes...like something can't make me up my mind.
Later...Ka Zi had send me to school and I thanked her.Although...it was very early..and that time was 06.20am...
Location:School....
Time:02.00pm
SKIP ALL THE 7 HOURS!!!I HATE IT!!!BUT I LIKE ONE THING....STUDY HARD!!!
Later..Riby went out and tell me that we all gonna go out with Fong..and I never know that.Her friend...I not remeber what's her name..shared about Fadly...my old friend..who is pervert and playboy....and our love doctor..that is Fong...try to tell something...about manage...hehehe..and then...I had war leg with Riby...hahaha...
Later...
Fong had to go take his sister...wait??...Brother??..I don't know...and I was try to kill my feeling..stand it up.
I went to the toilet and look myself in the mirror...imagine what happen at my friends...family.....Wendyll....Sumi...and my life...what had I done???..Did I..did something???Or maybe...it was wrong...and end...
Then............
Fong came in..and I don't know..he hand me a few tissue and I wipe my tears off.I tell him to lets go..and my face were red cheers....and we all went back to school...
Tell him say see ya...and I got a few things to do now...
Time:05.30pm
Location:On the way back....
Skip all the activity parts...and also...I help Riby take up her books..and went up the stairs.I look outside...IT WAS UNCLE JO!!!...So...I had to gave the books back to her...and she thanked me I think...and I went in the car.Uncle Jo start to laugh at his music...==''...
Time:06.30pm
Location:Room 14...
I went on...and take shower..online for a few minutes...and then..I take a walk at the garden.I look at Wendy..and her face were look tired..like me..as we both are.I went upon to her...and ask her what happen today...she look at me..and say..."Tired"...hahaha...I know...me also...
She went to her room..and maybe she's online I guess.
So....I take a rest at the garden...for a few moment although it was rain.
Time:08.30pm
Location:Dining room...
Dinners serve...Wendy not coming yet...and I go to her room..and knock her door...ask her what is she doing and she was online...I told her dinners ready and she came out..with a weird face to me.
So...she just hold my hand...hard...and tell me..what happen..and I told her nothing.
Dinners ready....Sumi was there..and she look happier a little...cause..she start to smile at me...and everyone.Nick was eating snacks only...jeez...
Miss.Landlady was having fun with Mui Mui...and she told me...no need to wash the plates and bowls.
Time:09.00pm
Location:Corridors.....
A wonders for second...she tell me to tell her the truth..what is up with me..and I told her...wisely...my life...can't go on well...cause..we both might stay for a year..not go on...so..I will do whatever it takes for you.She suddenly...kiss me...and had a wonder and tell me...a year...of though and mind.I understand....that now...
She just kiss me in the lips..for the second time...and I wonder...my heart has fallen.My....feeling...like having great...but...I'll miss my twins...Lawrence..for this time.I pray...wishing well...to go on..
Time:Now......
Location:Room 14.........
I take her to her room..and say thanks to her and she take her hand and put at my chest...feeling the heartbeat and say.."Here..."...and she close the door...
I went to Sumi room...and she was sleeping...so..I leave her alone...for a while
I just had a miserable day for a moment but still...I understand about that now...what has chosen for each of us.
Thanks..Fong..I mean..brother...if Lawrence...alive...I wish he will meet you two one day but...he's gone so...one day..I will.
And friends out there...one day..and I will pray you all...and great day and a debt I had done...and my family...I love you all...and wish your life will go on...and you..my dear...although we both one year life...I will...know you..as I do in my heart...like we use to 6 years ago..with Lawrence...
Well..now I blog finish and my dog here...Law...disturb me...and take out my shirt in my closet...damn it!!...Well..I got to go and sleep early...cause..I was tired and tears out...well...got to go..see you all...and I'll never say goodbye......
To Be Continued.....................
Benny Liew............(To beside you all time...if I would...............)........................
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
What seems so long...has been gone..(Sumi stories)
Time:10.15pm
Date:04.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
Cry..let your feelings off my dear....and I will understand more....
Today.....
Time:12.40pm
Location:Room 14
Did not go to school...that is..cause...I was having a little fever...and when I was online...Riby also online...and she also got fever!!...I didn't know what and hope so she'll heal fast.Then....my leg...like ice..can't feel a single muscle...and had to massage for a while.
Wendy already went to school...and she had a busy day today...and Miss.Landlady also went to school...so,me,Sumi,Nick,Ka Zi will take over.I was in my room the whole time.Then...someone knocks the door.
It was Nick and tell me what happen to me.I told him I got a little fever...and he went to the dinning room and gave me medicine.I thanked him and he nodded his head and walk away...and I wonder what happen to me and why I got fever???
OH YEAH!!!..YESTERDAY!!!...I was share a little sip of coffee with Wendy!!...NO WONDER....jeez....spread disease already....sigh.........................
Time:02.50pm
Location:Corridor...outside...
I went out..and see if Wendy came back..and I saw her..she was there.I ran there..and a little weak too..and help her take her books and bag.I walk inside...and we both saw Sumi...holding a book and went in to her room.We both look at each other...and wonder...what to do...and....I got a plan.
Then..I take Wendy to her room...and she had to bath..so...I take a nap for a while..in her room...and my eyes were close....shut in a dream for a few moment....
ZZZzzzZzzz.........................
Time:05.40pm
Location:Room 15....
I woke up and look at the time..and the time was...OH NO!!!!...Almost 06.00pm!!????
I wake up...and went to my room...had shower and change...and I realize...I bath once...sigh....
Then...I return to Wendy room..and she was using her laptop..hearing songs and download songs.Wendy look at me...as she wanted to tell me something.And...I went infront..seat next to her and talk to her.
I tell her...
"Why don't..we tonight share stories with Sumi?"
"Yeah...I will."..she reply..
I was happy to hear that..so,tonight..we will!!
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room...
We having dinner..and everyone was silent.Sumi finish her food fast..and so on with Ka Zi..and Ka Zi said..."Who want to follow me to 7-Eleven?"
I raise me hand...and so does Wendy...cause...as plan..we follow.
We both finish already...and get ready.So...we both follow Ka Zi.
Time:08.30pm
Location:7-Eleven
After finish our dinner...we both went to 7-Eleven with Ka Zi and bought some snacks...I mean...kinda a lot...well..spend a lot too....we bought chocolates,beverage,drinks,some groceries and snacks.....
And the receipt...RM30.45....I pay half,Wendy pay half and Ka Zi pay one per five...it's unfair and she still said.."Tax car for you two...hehehe"...==''
Well...after that...she bring us home....and I was behind with Wendy...and she look outside...and I try to hold her hand....and got it.It was cold...and she look at me..and smile at me..and I told her.."As we plan"...and she nodded her head.
Later....
Location:Home...then...we both when to Room 2
We walk together back...and Ka Zi went to her room...so,I and Wendy walk to Sumi room...
I knock her room door...and she open it.Wendy start to speak.She said..."Can we come in..we want to share something...maybe snacks."..
And then...she open the door..
We both went in and look in her room.It was beautiful...and nice.
Time:09.12pm
Location:Room 2...
Wendy put the snacks and beverage down and start to talk to her...and look at her photos.
I look at one of her frame photo.It was touching..it was a family photo.Her dad was standing infront,her mom was next her dad and she was next to her dad..and make a perfect shot of her family.
I ask her...how old was she when she take this photo.She said when she was 11 years old.
Then...I ask Wendy and Sumi to sit down and tell her to enjoy drinks.I gave her biscuit and drinks..while Wendy put her hand on her back..and tell her...a special thing...a story...and we both ask her....how was her old life???She put down her food and start to talk.She tell us..a story...from the past...
Year:2005.....
Location:Selangor...
"""Her age were just 9 years old and she was having fun with her family.It was a joyful life.She also told us about her father...who was a business man works for books company and her mom was a house-wife.Her dad...was a lover,a care taker and know what is best for his both wife and daughter.
It was in those days she had a great life with them...and also..a great care of love as much as she can go on.
Then...she continue her story....
Year:2007...
Location:Selangor....her home...
Her mom and dad having problems and had nothing to do neither work...it was because her dad company bankrupt...and had no work to do.So..her dad had to work as a car business for another month..and it was success.So...her dad life will go on again.
Her age was 11...and know what is best to study hard for next year UPSR...to makeher parents proud and go on to a brighter future....but...it was hopeless...
Year:2008....
Location:On the way to Kuala Lumpur....
She pass her UPSR with flying colors..that is 7 A's!!!....Her parents were proud of her...and gave her a locket...with her name and her family picture carved on it.It was a great gifts.
Her family want to visit their relatives...and she was happy.Sumi understand that she did not visit her cousin for months...and also she miss her aunt there.
Later...while on the way....a car was heading towards her car and smash her dad and mom from the front.She was behind and her head knock behind the glass and fainted...and she don't know what happen next.."""
Later....she put her both hand on her face and start crying...and her tears were fill of sadness that I never though.Her happiness can't feel for a thousand times ever.On that time....>>>
Year:December 2008
location:Hospital Kuala Lumpur...
"""She and her family bring to the hospital and her mom and dad...was..too late to be saved.She woke up in a light and she look up...it was the hospital ward light.She then...saw a doctor and three policeman approach on her...and tell her her a bad news...that her mom and dad...has no more..and long gone.Her heart...were break..her tears...were flow...and cry.She shout and told them...it's not real..it's not real.
It was real...and her tears...later...when to a slumber sleep...
Now....she had no where to go..and no where...to lives.
By next week...her uncle will bring her somewhere she will stay alone...that is...here...and here..she will study and go on her lives.Her uncle didn't want to take care of her.That is why..she was lonely."""
She cried hard and Wendy hug her from the side.My tears was a little..came out and feel her side...and I know..her feelings was 1000 deep can't feel her happiness.I take her hand...and pray...and Wendy took our hands...and pray...wish..and hope for help...and help is hope.
I smile at her...and she said.."Is it good...to had a great time?"..and I tell her...yes...
I take out the chocolate and gave her...she eat it...and look at us.Her tears were stop.Her eyes were look tired...so...we both decided to let her rest.I take her to her bed...and Wendy clean the place up.I blanket her...and tell her...."Be patience,we will...help you"...and she nodded her head...and close her eyes.I look at Wendy and she smile at me.
After that...we had to go out...and I tell Sumi...."Happy always" and off her room light...and hope...she won't cry no more.
I close the door...and Wendy stop and wait for me...then...we both walk together to her room.
Time:Now...
Location:Room 14....
I take Wendy to her room and she said..."Ben...you're too kind.And I like when you are and who you are.I also...like you..when...your heart is warm and fuzzy.I love you"
My face were red boiled and I told her..."Me too..and I understand that."
She look at me and went in her room.And wave my hand to her...and I went back to my room.I had a great stories to know..and to know...what is sadness rather than happiness.I hope...you all will understand what is it.
Now...I finish my blog..with my heart burden deep...and Sumi...I wish...and pray for you...like my brother..who lost too.
And also...I will tell you about my old life with Wendy and Lawrence.I will.......
Wendy...I love you...and also...my heart has burden deep..and I will study hard and success in life together.I promise....
To mom and dad....I hope you two will go on...even now your son is here alone...you are my inspiration of hope.I love you both....
Friends.....I know you all..but we can be as long as we can...and also...maybe some of you all son't know me yet...and one day..you will.....
Myself....I care what is go on....and I lead the one who choose to follow.......and I stop here....as my heart was burden deep inside....
To Be Continued...........................
Benny Liew...............(Is a care of true hope...a care of fragile hope....and a hope of fragile love................)..................................
Date:04.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
Cry..let your feelings off my dear....and I will understand more....
Today.....
Time:12.40pm
Location:Room 14
Did not go to school...that is..cause...I was having a little fever...and when I was online...Riby also online...and she also got fever!!...I didn't know what and hope so she'll heal fast.Then....my leg...like ice..can't feel a single muscle...and had to massage for a while.
Wendy already went to school...and she had a busy day today...and Miss.Landlady also went to school...so,me,Sumi,Nick,Ka Zi will take over.I was in my room the whole time.Then...someone knocks the door.
It was Nick and tell me what happen to me.I told him I got a little fever...and he went to the dinning room and gave me medicine.I thanked him and he nodded his head and walk away...and I wonder what happen to me and why I got fever???
OH YEAH!!!..YESTERDAY!!!...I was share a little sip of coffee with Wendy!!...NO WONDER....jeez....spread disease already....sigh.........................
Time:02.50pm
Location:Corridor...outside...
I went out..and see if Wendy came back..and I saw her..she was there.I ran there..and a little weak too..and help her take her books and bag.I walk inside...and we both saw Sumi...holding a book and went in to her room.We both look at each other...and wonder...what to do...and....I got a plan.
Then..I take Wendy to her room...and she had to bath..so...I take a nap for a while..in her room...and my eyes were close....shut in a dream for a few moment....
ZZZzzzZzzz.........................
Time:05.40pm
Location:Room 15....
I woke up and look at the time..and the time was...OH NO!!!!...Almost 06.00pm!!????
I wake up...and went to my room...had shower and change...and I realize...I bath once...sigh....
Then...I return to Wendy room..and she was using her laptop..hearing songs and download songs.Wendy look at me...as she wanted to tell me something.And...I went infront..seat next to her and talk to her.
I tell her...
"Why don't..we tonight share stories with Sumi?"
"Yeah...I will."..she reply..
I was happy to hear that..so,tonight..we will!!
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room...
We having dinner..and everyone was silent.Sumi finish her food fast..and so on with Ka Zi..and Ka Zi said..."Who want to follow me to 7-Eleven?"
I raise me hand...and so does Wendy...cause...as plan..we follow.
We both finish already...and get ready.So...we both follow Ka Zi.
Time:08.30pm
Location:7-Eleven
After finish our dinner...we both went to 7-Eleven with Ka Zi and bought some snacks...I mean...kinda a lot...well..spend a lot too....we bought chocolates,beverage,drinks,some groceries and snacks.....
And the receipt...RM30.45....I pay half,Wendy pay half and Ka Zi pay one per five...it's unfair and she still said.."Tax car for you two...hehehe"...==''
Well...after that...she bring us home....and I was behind with Wendy...and she look outside...and I try to hold her hand....and got it.It was cold...and she look at me..and smile at me..and I told her.."As we plan"...and she nodded her head.
Later....
Location:Home...then...we both when to Room 2
We walk together back...and Ka Zi went to her room...so,I and Wendy walk to Sumi room...
I knock her room door...and she open it.Wendy start to speak.She said..."Can we come in..we want to share something...maybe snacks."..
And then...she open the door..
We both went in and look in her room.It was beautiful...and nice.
Time:09.12pm
Location:Room 2...
Wendy put the snacks and beverage down and start to talk to her...and look at her photos.
I look at one of her frame photo.It was touching..it was a family photo.Her dad was standing infront,her mom was next her dad and she was next to her dad..and make a perfect shot of her family.
I ask her...how old was she when she take this photo.She said when she was 11 years old.
Then...I ask Wendy and Sumi to sit down and tell her to enjoy drinks.I gave her biscuit and drinks..while Wendy put her hand on her back..and tell her...a special thing...a story...and we both ask her....how was her old life???She put down her food and start to talk.She tell us..a story...from the past...
Year:2005.....
Location:Selangor...
"""Her age were just 9 years old and she was having fun with her family.It was a joyful life.She also told us about her father...who was a business man works for books company and her mom was a house-wife.Her dad...was a lover,a care taker and know what is best for his both wife and daughter.
It was in those days she had a great life with them...and also..a great care of love as much as she can go on.
Then...she continue her story....
Year:2007...
Location:Selangor....her home...
Her mom and dad having problems and had nothing to do neither work...it was because her dad company bankrupt...and had no work to do.So..her dad had to work as a car business for another month..and it was success.So...her dad life will go on again.
Her age was 11...and know what is best to study hard for next year UPSR...to makeher parents proud and go on to a brighter future....but...it was hopeless...
Year:2008....
Location:On the way to Kuala Lumpur....
She pass her UPSR with flying colors..that is 7 A's!!!....Her parents were proud of her...and gave her a locket...with her name and her family picture carved on it.It was a great gifts.
Her family want to visit their relatives...and she was happy.Sumi understand that she did not visit her cousin for months...and also she miss her aunt there.
Later...while on the way....a car was heading towards her car and smash her dad and mom from the front.She was behind and her head knock behind the glass and fainted...and she don't know what happen next.."""
Later....she put her both hand on her face and start crying...and her tears were fill of sadness that I never though.Her happiness can't feel for a thousand times ever.On that time....>>>
Year:December 2008
location:Hospital Kuala Lumpur...
"""She and her family bring to the hospital and her mom and dad...was..too late to be saved.She woke up in a light and she look up...it was the hospital ward light.She then...saw a doctor and three policeman approach on her...and tell her her a bad news...that her mom and dad...has no more..and long gone.Her heart...were break..her tears...were flow...and cry.She shout and told them...it's not real..it's not real.
It was real...and her tears...later...when to a slumber sleep...
Now....she had no where to go..and no where...to lives.
By next week...her uncle will bring her somewhere she will stay alone...that is...here...and here..she will study and go on her lives.Her uncle didn't want to take care of her.That is why..she was lonely."""
She cried hard and Wendy hug her from the side.My tears was a little..came out and feel her side...and I know..her feelings was 1000 deep can't feel her happiness.I take her hand...and pray...and Wendy took our hands...and pray...wish..and hope for help...and help is hope.
I smile at her...and she said.."Is it good...to had a great time?"..and I tell her...yes...
I take out the chocolate and gave her...she eat it...and look at us.Her tears were stop.Her eyes were look tired...so...we both decided to let her rest.I take her to her bed...and Wendy clean the place up.I blanket her...and tell her...."Be patience,we will...help you"...and she nodded her head...and close her eyes.I look at Wendy and she smile at me.
After that...we had to go out...and I tell Sumi...."Happy always" and off her room light...and hope...she won't cry no more.
I close the door...and Wendy stop and wait for me...then...we both walk together to her room.
Time:Now...
Location:Room 14....
I take Wendy to her room and she said..."Ben...you're too kind.And I like when you are and who you are.I also...like you..when...your heart is warm and fuzzy.I love you"
My face were red boiled and I told her..."Me too..and I understand that."
She look at me and went in her room.And wave my hand to her...and I went back to my room.I had a great stories to know..and to know...what is sadness rather than happiness.I hope...you all will understand what is it.
Now...I finish my blog..with my heart burden deep...and Sumi...I wish...and pray for you...like my brother..who lost too.
And also...I will tell you about my old life with Wendy and Lawrence.I will.......
Wendy...I love you...and also...my heart has burden deep..and I will study hard and success in life together.I promise....
To mom and dad....I hope you two will go on...even now your son is here alone...you are my inspiration of hope.I love you both....
Friends.....I know you all..but we can be as long as we can...and also...maybe some of you all son't know me yet...and one day..you will.....
Myself....I care what is go on....and I lead the one who choose to follow.......and I stop here....as my heart was burden deep inside....
To Be Continued...........................
Benny Liew...............(Is a care of true hope...a care of fragile hope....and a hope of fragile love................)..................................
Monday, May 3, 2010
Rather what I want to know....
Time:10.01pm
date:03.April.2010
Location:Room 14...
Reckless....too reckless...don't want to know much...
Time:05.30pm
Location:On the way home....
Damn it!!...Uncle Jo came late again!!!...Gosh..feel like wanna crap off!!
Then...Wendy was behind me and piggy back on my behind.I was shocked and it was heavy.I look back..and she smiled at me.She looks like a little childish...kinda...so..I went to my room..and get rest.I told Wendy to help me a little...that is...make me a cup of good warm coffee.She nodded her head and smile again.I thanked her....and she went away....and I was relax..myself...and chat with my friends for a while.
Later....she came in..and I smell good taste of bittersweet.I ask her if she wanna share with me but she denied..so..I finish it.I told her it was marvelous!!I put my hand on her head..and we both laugh for a while and she told me to go and bath..cause.. just return to school...so..I does what she said.
Time:06.00pm
Location:Room 15...
After I finish bath....I went to my room and change.After that...she ask me to help her to do Yahoo E-mail account...cause...Hotmail account always jammed the line.So...I done for her...and the account is...emm...maybe I tell you one day...cause...here is not secured.
She kiss my cheek and tell me thanks.I also tell her welcome and my face turn red.Well...it's dinner now.
Time:08.00pm
location:Dining room....
We all had dinner together...and Miss.Landlady look at us...like smiling at us..and tell us..we both cute when seat together.I know...it's cute....hahaha...
Well....after dinner...I help Miss.Landlady wash the plates and bowl...then..I saw Sumi walk outside.I was a little worry...about her again...look at her...shy to talk..that is.
Then..after that...I hold Sumi shoulder and told her wait and tell her what happen..and she told me nothing...and went off.Wendy look at me...and I told her we must help Sumi.She agrees...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
Then...I take Wendy to her room...tell her to sleep early because...she need go to school tomorrow and her duty must done too.
So...looks like I blog kinda early too...cause...I wanna sleep early.I hope....Sumi will understand more about life in here....and also...we will help her...
To Be Continued................................
Benny Liew...............(I will help you..and we will support you,dear Sumi.............)...................................................
date:03.April.2010
Location:Room 14...
Reckless....too reckless...don't want to know much...
Time:05.30pm
Location:On the way home....
Damn it!!...Uncle Jo came late again!!!...Gosh..feel like wanna crap off!!
Then...Wendy was behind me and piggy back on my behind.I was shocked and it was heavy.I look back..and she smiled at me.She looks like a little childish...kinda...so..I went to my room..and get rest.I told Wendy to help me a little...that is...make me a cup of good warm coffee.She nodded her head and smile again.I thanked her....and she went away....and I was relax..myself...and chat with my friends for a while.
Later....she came in..and I smell good taste of bittersweet.I ask her if she wanna share with me but she denied..so..I finish it.I told her it was marvelous!!I put my hand on her head..and we both laugh for a while and she told me to go and bath..cause.. just return to school...so..I does what she said.
Time:06.00pm
Location:Room 15...
After I finish bath....I went to my room and change.After that...she ask me to help her to do Yahoo E-mail account...cause...Hotmail account always jammed the line.So...I done for her...and the account is...emm...maybe I tell you one day...cause...here is not secured.
She kiss my cheek and tell me thanks.I also tell her welcome and my face turn red.Well...it's dinner now.
Time:08.00pm
location:Dining room....
We all had dinner together...and Miss.Landlady look at us...like smiling at us..and tell us..we both cute when seat together.I know...it's cute....hahaha...
Well....after dinner...I help Miss.Landlady wash the plates and bowl...then..I saw Sumi walk outside.I was a little worry...about her again...look at her...shy to talk..that is.
Then..after that...I hold Sumi shoulder and told her wait and tell her what happen..and she told me nothing...and went off.Wendy look at me...and I told her we must help Sumi.She agrees...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
Then...I take Wendy to her room...tell her to sleep early because...she need go to school tomorrow and her duty must done too.
So...looks like I blog kinda early too...cause...I wanna sleep early.I hope....Sumi will understand more about life in here....and also...we will help her...
To Be Continued................................
Benny Liew...............(I will help you..and we will support you,dear Sumi.............)...................................................
Sunday, May 2, 2010
It won't happen again...
Time:11.04pm
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14...
It won't..and it will not...happen again.I will help you as I do...and my friends too...just in case...well,about today.....like a little things that a claw on your hand...hmmm....
Time:07.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up...and my head were spin drowsy...cause...last night...the question..why???I got the answer but...I can't answer it..still..why????
Well..I walk to the bathroom and wash myself...and look at the mirror.What if....then...I look back..it was a hope.I can answer it..still...hard and nervous.
I go back to my room...and change...
Time:08.30am
Location:Room 15...
After I change...I went to Wendy room..and tell her I going to church.She said she wanted to go but....her condition..still like that...but at least she's fine now...then..I ask Sumi..as she woke up earlier that I expected.I ask her if she wanted to join me to church...and she denied me...she just shake her head and said no...and went to the bathroom...sigh...looks like I had to go alone.
Ka Zi...was ready...and she sent me to church...
Time:08.55am
location:Church...
Today is not me teach the kids..it's another pastor.So...I just seat back..and talk to my youth for a while...about this Friday we'll going to Mentakab...I mean..the whole church in Pahang youth will be going.So...Wai Hong...our leader youth..tells me that he will know what to do as he plan.I ask Ying Yi too..as she know what to do next.
Time:11.20am
Location:Worship corner....
I was message worship so we all listen to it.It was boring but...I was stunted on Pastor Siew...that is Ying Yi mom...tell everyone about parents and child problem.Why..today child so ignore of their parents???Then..she said..."Let us pray and giving hope to our child"..and I saw everyone take their child..hugging each other...saying sorry..and I saw Ying Yi and Yi Ming....both sister...pray on their families..holding hands...four of them.Is this family...of truth???I guess...it is.I just look at them..and keep in my heart...
" I love you mom...dad...as I know...my heart...know in another place..I will always know you.."
Time:02.00pm
Location:On the way back....
Message finish...and I went to Ying Yi mom...tell her what does it feels to had a great relationship in family.She told me..."God decide us...He help us.."..and I know..he will.
Then...I call Ka Zi...and waited for her.
She arrived and she was a little clumsy cause....her hand got a little cut...sigh...what the???...
Time:03.00pm
Location:Room 14...
I went in to my room..and had a bath...after that...change..and finish.I was tired and sleepy so...I went in to Wendy room and check.She was okay..and online use her laptop.So...I just leave it...tell her to be okay.And I told her.."I'll meet you tonight later at 09.00pm"..as she smile at me and said yes!!
I close the door..and went in my room.I jump on my bed and lay down.And then...my eyes were closing..and falling asleep......
ZZZZZzzzzzzzz...............
Time:07.30pm
Location:Room 14....(still sleep????WHAT!!???)
I woke up late!!!And it was dinner!!!...Damn!!!!...I rush to the washroom and wash my face and went in fast to the dining room...and look at it..it was only Miss.Landlady,Sumi,Mui Mui,Ian,Nick and Wendy.I went in..and Miss.Landlady told me that dinner Uncle Jo will go and pack.So...we wait...and he arrives after a few minutes.
Time:08.50pm
Location:Garden site....
We all had rice noodle with Chinese garlic sesame sauce..which is good.And also...I thanked to Uncle Jo.Later....
After we all finish...I call Wendy...as everyone had gone to their room.I hold her hand...alone..and walk to the garden and told her...the answer of yesterday...
The answer is...I care about you and I like you because....you're inside beauty..and I wanna shared and spared it on my life..."..and she hug me tight...and I didn't put my hand at her back..just hold her head on side.She tell me..."Worry not"..and also...I promise this year..I will success...for everyone..and her...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
I just take her back to her room...and tell her to sleep early...cause...she had to go to school.I wish...I will.
Later...I mean..now...I was sure my one year duty will go on to my destiny...and I hope...it was it...my life is my destiny.
From now on...I will study hard...earn my meaningful life to my parents...to her...to my brothers and sister...and to my generation and so on...till forever the end.
And also....I hope...I will..go on..as I stand...and I will...till go on.My question.....has fulfill...and I know...for everytime...every year....every...generations...^^
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew..........(A promise is a promise...A lie is a lie............A fate is a fate......)............................
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14...
It won't..and it will not...happen again.I will help you as I do...and my friends too...just in case...well,about today.....like a little things that a claw on your hand...hmmm....
Time:07.20am
Location:Room 14....
I woke up...and my head were spin drowsy...cause...last night...the question..why???I got the answer but...I can't answer it..still..why????
Well..I walk to the bathroom and wash myself...and look at the mirror.What if....then...I look back..it was a hope.I can answer it..still...hard and nervous.
I go back to my room...and change...
Time:08.30am
Location:Room 15...
After I change...I went to Wendy room..and tell her I going to church.She said she wanted to go but....her condition..still like that...but at least she's fine now...then..I ask Sumi..as she woke up earlier that I expected.I ask her if she wanted to join me to church...and she denied me...she just shake her head and said no...and went to the bathroom...sigh...looks like I had to go alone.
Ka Zi...was ready...and she sent me to church...
Time:08.55am
location:Church...
Today is not me teach the kids..it's another pastor.So...I just seat back..and talk to my youth for a while...about this Friday we'll going to Mentakab...I mean..the whole church in Pahang youth will be going.So...Wai Hong...our leader youth..tells me that he will know what to do as he plan.I ask Ying Yi too..as she know what to do next.
Time:11.20am
Location:Worship corner....
I was message worship so we all listen to it.It was boring but...I was stunted on Pastor Siew...that is Ying Yi mom...tell everyone about parents and child problem.Why..today child so ignore of their parents???Then..she said..."Let us pray and giving hope to our child"..and I saw everyone take their child..hugging each other...saying sorry..and I saw Ying Yi and Yi Ming....both sister...pray on their families..holding hands...four of them.Is this family...of truth???I guess...it is.I just look at them..and keep in my heart...
" I love you mom...dad...as I know...my heart...know in another place..I will always know you.."
Time:02.00pm
Location:On the way back....
Message finish...and I went to Ying Yi mom...tell her what does it feels to had a great relationship in family.She told me..."God decide us...He help us.."..and I know..he will.
Then...I call Ka Zi...and waited for her.
She arrived and she was a little clumsy cause....her hand got a little cut...sigh...what the???...
Time:03.00pm
Location:Room 14...
I went in to my room..and had a bath...after that...change..and finish.I was tired and sleepy so...I went in to Wendy room and check.She was okay..and online use her laptop.So...I just leave it...tell her to be okay.And I told her.."I'll meet you tonight later at 09.00pm"..as she smile at me and said yes!!
I close the door..and went in my room.I jump on my bed and lay down.And then...my eyes were closing..and falling asleep......
ZZZZZzzzzzzzz...............
Time:07.30pm
Location:Room 14....(still sleep????WHAT!!???)
I woke up late!!!And it was dinner!!!...Damn!!!!...I rush to the washroom and wash my face and went in fast to the dining room...and look at it..it was only Miss.Landlady,Sumi,Mui Mui,Ian,Nick and Wendy.I went in..and Miss.Landlady told me that dinner Uncle Jo will go and pack.So...we wait...and he arrives after a few minutes.
Time:08.50pm
Location:Garden site....
We all had rice noodle with Chinese garlic sesame sauce..which is good.And also...I thanked to Uncle Jo.Later....
After we all finish...I call Wendy...as everyone had gone to their room.I hold her hand...alone..and walk to the garden and told her...the answer of yesterday...
The answer is...I care about you and I like you because....you're inside beauty..and I wanna shared and spared it on my life..."..and she hug me tight...and I didn't put my hand at her back..just hold her head on side.She tell me..."Worry not"..and also...I promise this year..I will success...for everyone..and her...
Time:Now....
Location:Room 14...
I just take her back to her room...and tell her to sleep early...cause...she had to go to school.I wish...I will.
Later...I mean..now...I was sure my one year duty will go on to my destiny...and I hope...it was it...my life is my destiny.
From now on...I will study hard...earn my meaningful life to my parents...to her...to my brothers and sister...and to my generation and so on...till forever the end.
And also....I hope...I will..go on..as I stand...and I will...till go on.My question.....has fulfill...and I know...for everytime...every year....every...generations...^^
To Be Continued.......................
Benny Liew..........(A promise is a promise...A lie is a lie............A fate is a fate......)............................
Gazed moonlight in the night sky...
Time:12.35am
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
I never doubt it anymore than ever again...and the people I had know.As the rose fell on the ground,I collect and the rose fell of a sound.Well...today...
Time:06.20am
Location:Room 15.......
I woke up early to see her condition.I was afraid she will getting worse and I was kinda worry.So..I open her room door and see..she was sleeping..and I seat on her bedside..touching her forehead.It was cool down.So..I went to the dining room and take a wet cold towel to lap her head.
She haven't wake up yet and she was gaze up a little.Her eyes were blurry and look at me.I tell her to lay down and she did.I put the towel on her head and she hold my arm..asking me why am I so care about her...and I had nothing to say.It is my duty to take care of her.
Later...I told her to rest more and I will see her in the morning at 11.00am later...and she was asleep..silently...and my heart thinking...why??
Time:07.30am
Location:The garden site.....
I was outside and it was so cold but the star shines up and never warm.Am I stupid yet nor the answer of it can't be answer?
Later...I seat near the pond alone...facing up the sky...watching the sun rise from the edge of the mountain.It was beautiful and nice.I ever seen it once again...and hope so.
Then...Miss.Landlady had awake and she greets me..and ask me why am I alone.I told her I was here because I wanted to see the sun rise.Miss.Landlady also joined me and tell me about her past life on here...she told me:
"When she was young,her grandfather was the landlord here and take care of this place.And also...when his grandfather was young...when Japanese Communist invaded Raub..this place was his sanctuary and the safeties place from them until...the place had been burn down since year 1949.Miss.Landlady also told me that her father was meant to be the landlord but..he wasn't.It was meant to be her sister,that is why she and her sister was the landlady here.She wish her sister come back soon."
I put my hand at her shoulder and told her....."It was meant to be.I know...I know...you might be better use of it"..and she smile at me and give me a gentle hug.I told her not to worry...and it's her duty here.
I let go of her and tell her...."So...I gotta see Wendy"..and she smile at me...and tell me.."You and her move in being a great mean to us"...and I smile back and tell her all the best!!
Time:09.30am
Location:Corridor side....
I went to her room and she was still sleeping.I don't want to disturb her but I wanted to see her condition.She was okay so I want outside and seat on the corridor...looking at those trees where wind blew breezily.I look at the sun..and it's fading away...and the wind getting cooler....
It was breakfast.......
Time:10.00am
Location:Dining room...
Everyone was there except Wendy and Uncle Jo...as he went out no where.And Wendy was in her room..resting....
Mui Mui look at me..and I look at outside and everyone look down..while munching sandwich and salad.I ask Nick if he go anywhere later and he said he'll going to Kuala Lipis later and Ian will be going out with Ka Zi to buy their things.Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady will be at home with me and Wendyll.Ah Sun will going out with his friends later.
Looks like
Time:11.03am
Location:Room 15....
As I promise her.....I went to her room and check on her.Just in case not to wake her up.She look really tired and she could laugh with me a little.At least...then..i peel some fruits for her that Miss.Landlady gave me...that is pearl.I gave her one by one and gave her drink 100PLUS...
Later...she don't want to be alone and I had to spend my time in the room...so...I help her a lot of things.
Then...I bring my laptop to her room and online as we both hearing music and she was cool down a while and fell asleep again...oh God....==''
Time:06.00pm
Location:Still..in Room 15....too lacked!!
I was dozed off from 04.00pm to 06.00pm!????OH MY!!???
I never knew it and I look at her bed...she's gone.I look at the dining room...she was there..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady..cooking.Cooking what I guess???
Later.....
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room.....
We all had dinner but the boys not yet return.Ka Zi when out with his brother and Nick,Ian and Uncle Jo too.Sigh.......looks like I'm alone with Mui Mui,Wendy,Miss.Lamdlady and Ah Sun now...but...Sumi???...Is she okay???
Sumi had been silent for three days...and she look thinner now.I...I can help her but...then.....
When we all had dinner...Sumi close her face and cried.....and she always said.."Forgive me"..and I really don't know what happen.I hold her shoulder and ask her what happen.She was shocked...and scared.I look at her eyes...like my twins...as I remember...I...I can't do this no more.
She look at me and said..."Help me..."..and I guess she's in trauma.Miss.Landlady hold her and take her to her room...and we'll had no more mood to eat anymore.....and I was worry on Sumi..she was in big fear that she can't get.
Now......what should I do?
Later.....
Time:10.00pm
Location:Room 15.....
I look up...the moon shines yellow bright...like a dream.I ask Wendy if she wanna join me and she wanted.I take her to the pond site and ask Sumi to join us.
We both when to her room...and Miss.Landlady with Mui Mui were there with Sumi...and she seems to be okay now.I salute her and pray for her....not to scared anymore.Later...we both had to go..and I let go of they three...wish Sumi...in happiness.
While then.....
Time:11.00pm
Location:The garden site.....
We both talk about life...as she cuddle me from the side...and my life were inside her heart as I ever know.I told her about friendship...life..and what went on now.She just listen to me...and Sumi...Oh Gosh...wish we could help her.....
Then....the moon rise slowly and the stars...was very little.I can see everyone of it.And my hand...was freeze...
Law were sleeping in my room all I know he knows how to do is sleep and eat.....==''
Later.....
Time:12.10am....
Location:Room 15....
I send her back to her room...and tell her to rest.I put her on bed and I didn't kiss her forehead yet.I hope...I'll help her.I lay her down...and let go...and close the door and look at Sumi room door.I understand how is the feeling if we lost the love one.
Later....
Time:Now..............
Location:Room 14..........
I was alone in my room.....looking the moon myself at the window and look at my life.Was I too sad or....was I????
Sumi...wish we understand us too and about you...we just like you..who lost a brother.Hope...I know what is meant to be.
And also....now....my tears still flows.....and my heart...sad....hurt...like use to be....when her gone.
I hope...I could help everyone.
And hope....................................is fragile..................
To Be Continued...............................
Benny Liew................(What has meant to be a hope???Is it...fragile????Or is it........simple..)..............................
Date:02.May.2010
Location:Room 14....
I never doubt it anymore than ever again...and the people I had know.As the rose fell on the ground,I collect and the rose fell of a sound.Well...today...
Time:06.20am
Location:Room 15.......
I woke up early to see her condition.I was afraid she will getting worse and I was kinda worry.So..I open her room door and see..she was sleeping..and I seat on her bedside..touching her forehead.It was cool down.So..I went to the dining room and take a wet cold towel to lap her head.
She haven't wake up yet and she was gaze up a little.Her eyes were blurry and look at me.I tell her to lay down and she did.I put the towel on her head and she hold my arm..asking me why am I so care about her...and I had nothing to say.It is my duty to take care of her.
Later...I told her to rest more and I will see her in the morning at 11.00am later...and she was asleep..silently...and my heart thinking...why??
Time:07.30am
Location:The garden site.....
I was outside and it was so cold but the star shines up and never warm.Am I stupid yet nor the answer of it can't be answer?
Later...I seat near the pond alone...facing up the sky...watching the sun rise from the edge of the mountain.It was beautiful and nice.I ever seen it once again...and hope so.
Then...Miss.Landlady had awake and she greets me..and ask me why am I alone.I told her I was here because I wanted to see the sun rise.Miss.Landlady also joined me and tell me about her past life on here...she told me:
"When she was young,her grandfather was the landlord here and take care of this place.And also...when his grandfather was young...when Japanese Communist invaded Raub..this place was his sanctuary and the safeties place from them until...the place had been burn down since year 1949.Miss.Landlady also told me that her father was meant to be the landlord but..he wasn't.It was meant to be her sister,that is why she and her sister was the landlady here.She wish her sister come back soon."
I put my hand at her shoulder and told her....."It was meant to be.I know...I know...you might be better use of it"..and she smile at me and give me a gentle hug.I told her not to worry...and it's her duty here.
I let go of her and tell her...."So...I gotta see Wendy"..and she smile at me...and tell me.."You and her move in being a great mean to us"...and I smile back and tell her all the best!!
Time:09.30am
Location:Corridor side....
I went to her room and she was still sleeping.I don't want to disturb her but I wanted to see her condition.She was okay so I want outside and seat on the corridor...looking at those trees where wind blew breezily.I look at the sun..and it's fading away...and the wind getting cooler....
It was breakfast.......
Time:10.00am
Location:Dining room...
Everyone was there except Wendy and Uncle Jo...as he went out no where.And Wendy was in her room..resting....
Mui Mui look at me..and I look at outside and everyone look down..while munching sandwich and salad.I ask Nick if he go anywhere later and he said he'll going to Kuala Lipis later and Ian will be going out with Ka Zi to buy their things.Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady will be at home with me and Wendyll.Ah Sun will going out with his friends later.
Looks like
Time:11.03am
Location:Room 15....
As I promise her.....I went to her room and check on her.Just in case not to wake her up.She look really tired and she could laugh with me a little.At least...then..i peel some fruits for her that Miss.Landlady gave me...that is pearl.I gave her one by one and gave her drink 100PLUS...
Later...she don't want to be alone and I had to spend my time in the room...so...I help her a lot of things.
Then...I bring my laptop to her room and online as we both hearing music and she was cool down a while and fell asleep again...oh God....==''
Time:06.00pm
Location:Still..in Room 15....too lacked!!
I was dozed off from 04.00pm to 06.00pm!????OH MY!!???
I never knew it and I look at her bed...she's gone.I look at the dining room...she was there..with Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady..cooking.Cooking what I guess???
Later.....
Time:07.50pm
Location:Dining room.....
We all had dinner but the boys not yet return.Ka Zi when out with his brother and Nick,Ian and Uncle Jo too.Sigh.......looks like I'm alone with Mui Mui,Wendy,Miss.Lamdlady and Ah Sun now...but...Sumi???...Is she okay???
Sumi had been silent for three days...and she look thinner now.I...I can help her but...then.....
When we all had dinner...Sumi close her face and cried.....and she always said.."Forgive me"..and I really don't know what happen.I hold her shoulder and ask her what happen.She was shocked...and scared.I look at her eyes...like my twins...as I remember...I...I can't do this no more.
She look at me and said..."Help me..."..and I guess she's in trauma.Miss.Landlady hold her and take her to her room...and we'll had no more mood to eat anymore.....and I was worry on Sumi..she was in big fear that she can't get.
Now......what should I do?
Later.....
Time:10.00pm
Location:Room 15.....
I look up...the moon shines yellow bright...like a dream.I ask Wendy if she wanna join me and she wanted.I take her to the pond site and ask Sumi to join us.
We both when to her room...and Miss.Landlady with Mui Mui were there with Sumi...and she seems to be okay now.I salute her and pray for her....not to scared anymore.Later...we both had to go..and I let go of they three...wish Sumi...in happiness.
While then.....
Time:11.00pm
Location:The garden site.....
We both talk about life...as she cuddle me from the side...and my life were inside her heart as I ever know.I told her about friendship...life..and what went on now.She just listen to me...and Sumi...Oh Gosh...wish we could help her.....
Then....the moon rise slowly and the stars...was very little.I can see everyone of it.And my hand...was freeze...
Law were sleeping in my room all I know he knows how to do is sleep and eat.....==''
Later.....
Time:12.10am....
Location:Room 15....
I send her back to her room...and tell her to rest.I put her on bed and I didn't kiss her forehead yet.I hope...I'll help her.I lay her down...and let go...and close the door and look at Sumi room door.I understand how is the feeling if we lost the love one.
Later....
Time:Now..............
Location:Room 14..........
I was alone in my room.....looking the moon myself at the window and look at my life.Was I too sad or....was I????
Sumi...wish we understand us too and about you...we just like you..who lost a brother.Hope...I know what is meant to be.
And also....now....my tears still flows.....and my heart...sad....hurt...like use to be....when her gone.
I hope...I could help everyone.
And hope....................................is fragile..................
To Be Continued...............................
Benny Liew................(What has meant to be a hope???Is it...fragile????Or is it........simple..)..............................
Saturday, May 1, 2010
La vie En Rose......(Life Shade as Rose)......
Eyes that gaze into mine,
A smile that is lost on his lips,
That is the unretouched portrait,
Of the man to whom I belong.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason.
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.
In endless nights of love,
A great delight that comes about,
The pains and bothers are banished,
Happy, happy to die of love.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason,
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.....................................................
(From Edith Piath,1991).................
A smile that is lost on his lips,
That is the unretouched portrait,
Of the man to whom I belong.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason.
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.
In endless nights of love,
A great delight that comes about,
The pains and bothers are banished,
Happy, happy to die of love.
When he takes me in his arms,
And speaks softly to me,
I see life in rosy hues.
He tells me words of love,
Words of every day,
And in them I become something.
He has entered my heart,
A part of happiness.
Where of I understand the reason,
It’s he for me and I for him, throughout life,
He has told me, he has sworn to me, for life.
And from the things that I sense,
Now I can feel within me,
My heart that beats.....................................................
(From Edith Piath,1991).................
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