Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Awaken from a sweet dreams...

Time:04.40am
Location: 14...
Date:06.April.2010

I awake...and still remember what happen just now when we both tried to kiss but failed.I just don't know why am I crying now..my tears were flow down till my chin...and shine drop to the floor.
I...I know...she loves me from the beginning but...am I ready?
I can't do it.I just take care of her but...to love her?
My tears stopped now..and I wanted to see her but..now it's too early.
Jeez...Wendy..I am so sorry just now...if I know you were trying to kiss me but I did run away just now...I know you feeling bad now but...as a best friend...I am so sorry..
Later on..my eyes were not heavy anymore and I couldn't sleep maybe because of just now...(sigh....)...

I wish...I know what is on our way now...

To Be Continued...........

Benny Liew............

Monday, April 5, 2010

In a front tomorrow...A mistake that no tomorrow....

Time:10.55pm
Location:Room 14..
Date:05.April.2010


(Sigh....)...I just go back to my room and feeling lonely a while...and suddenly...I remember my word yesterday...about my feelings towards her.Then...08.15pm...it's dinner now..I go and help Miss.Landlady cook chicken soup with black mushroom and spinach with chili.
After we all finish...I call Wendy and everyone that dinners ready.

Time:09.00pm

We all just finish our dinner...and I and Wendy wanted to help Miss.Landlady to wash the plates and cups but she tell me no need...So..I just head back my room with Wendy.

Location:Corridor site...
Time:09.50pm

I was seating nearby the corridor...watching the star gazing...and hearing music with Wendy...and ask her...tomorrow...about her school.She just explain everything to me...so...we just...look in each other and...I almost kiss her lips...we both tried but...I moved my head away and ran to my room.....asking what the hell am I doing?!!

Location:Room 14..
Time between 10.15pm

Then..I was inside my room...laying down and thinking just now...she tried to kiss me but I avoid it.What the hell...(sigh....)...what am I doing actually???
Then...I on my laptop..chat with several people to release my tension....chat with Riby about her problems....and I chat with Nicole for a while..that she explain to me her family problems....and she reminds of my past about my mom and dad......looks like we have the same problem...then...I finish chat with her between 11.15pm...

After that..I wanted to say "I'm sorry" to her...am I being stupid or I cannot be a real man who just didn't get a kiss at all??

(Sigh....)...looks like I stop here for a while..well..I gotta sleep now..cause tomorrow got school..at least I try..cause I got insomnia...well...see you all later....^^

To Be Continued.......

Benny Liew.......

Visit the past...

Time:06.09pm
Location:Room 14...
Date:05.April.2010


I woke up late today about 12.50pm......cause I slept late yesterday.Then..I saw her bed..she was gone and I wake up...rest my back and take my things back to my room.
Then,I saw Ah Sun and Mui Mui playing chess at the garden site.I ask them where is Wendy and both of them said she with Miss.Landlady and Sumi in the kitchen.
Then..I head to the bathroom and change my cloth.I want to go to town later.

Time:02.30pm
Location:Raub Town..


I just leave them and set my foot to town by bus.I wanted to buy flowers cause I want to visit my grandfather grave today.
When I arrived at town,I straightly go to a shop where sells a lot of flowers and books.I stop by there and bought a bunch of flowers.The shopkeeper ask me am I alone buy this flowers and I said "Yes".He just curious on me cause he know that I am alone now.After I bought those flowers,I go in deeper and bought a few sketch book and pencil for my drawing cause now I'm out of it.

Later,I had lunch alone at a coffee shop..where old folks use to go there drink and chat.I just seat alone and enjoy my coffee and noodle.

After that..I went to the bus station..waiting for Bus Ah Keat...

Time:04.15pm
Location:Home...

When I am inside the bus...I look out the window and saw the sun wanted to set and it kinda bright.I just wear my spectacle and look forward.
Finally...I reach home...and Wendy was worry about me and ask me where am I going.I told her I wanted to buy flowers and visit my grandfather graves.She ask me that she wanted to follow so..Uncle Jo,also,wanted to go and visit his one.

Time:05.55pm
Location:Bukit Koman Graveyard...

We reach here already and we all had to go up.She hold my hand and I told her don't be afraid.Uncle Jo had to go up further cause his brother grave was up there.Until now I didn't know that he had a brother and he remind us...me and Wendy...about Lawrence.I starred at her and she just smiled at me....

Then...I saw my grandfather grave fill with beautiful flowers.I know....my dad and my relative must had visit it just now...and I just put my flower next to it.She told me that my grandfather looks like me.I just nodded my head.

Well...Uncle Jo just finish.We all return back home..and it was raining for a short while.

Then..we all reach home and I have to help Miss.Landlady to prepare dinner...and also...I hope I will know..that Uncle Jo sadness on his brother..I'm sorry on him...

To Be Continued........

Benny Liew......

As for one day in a moment....

Time:02.45am
Date:05.April.2010
Location:Room 15...

On 04,April.2010...I was heading to church in a blind morning.Wendy wake me up at 05.00am...cause today was Easter Day in church. When she wake me up...I feel that she look so energetic all of sudden.Maybe she interest to join the church member.

Time:Between 05.05am...

I wake up and take my spectacle..head to shower and change.After I change in my room...I look at the mirror..and I feeling like really an idiot cause I never tell her my feelings yet.
Then..Wendy came into my room..and I see she wearing her stylish cloth...I also feeling crazy on her now cause she was so beautiful!!I love her scarf color...cause it was match with her cloth and I wore my match tie on my cloth too.

Time:06.00am
Location:On the way...

Ka Zi woke up much earlier the we expected cause she had to go Benta today.Then..she drive us to church and we saw many people there cause it's Easter Morning.

Time:06.30am
Location:Churh..

We all had worship and pray for an hour inside.Singing...listening to message and news.I felt so happy cause...she sit next to me all the time.

After 1 hour....

We all had breakfast at church..she hold my hand infront of everyone..and making people misunderstand already...one of our youth member ask me who is she..and I told her...she was my best friend..and the worse is...she hug me from side to side...and someone look at us...and though negatively now....
She then meet a lot of my youth member...and she greet them each other.Then..one of our Pastor ask me that is she my friend..and I told her yes.She smile at me and tell me that I am lucky to meet a good friend.

Time:09.10am

Sunday school is about to start and I had to go in and help the children.Then...Wendy still..not let go of me...so..I decided to let her join me in this activity.
When the children saw us link hand...they ask me is this my girlfriend...and our face turn red cherry...and a few of the teen youth laughing at us.
Well..she still...not let go yet...

When we all paint the eggs...she painted my name on it..and write there.."Ben..~~"
I also look weird on it.
When we all play games..we all had fun together and kinda happy when she with me...
Then...Ka Zi call me in the phone and tell me she will not take us home instead Uncle Jo will take us.

Time:12.50pm...
Location:KFC

After that..the church has close and the party has over..I chat with my youth member and we all had fun together..so..we take photo of everyone..and I kept one already..and I don't want to upload here cause..it's not save.
I ask Pastor that...I will baptism this December...and also....Wendy has become one of our youth here...
Later...I and Wendy went to KFC to had lunch.I just ate a little cause I don't want to gain my weight again...and also I don't want to become fat!!
She also thought the same with me.

Then...after we all had lunch..we all went to the church back and wait for Uncle Jo and Ah Sun.
Few minutes later....

The arrived with Sumi together.I was smiling at her and she smiled me back again.Then..Wendy said she want to go back cause she was very tired..and Uncle Jo said.."You all have rough time here arr???"
"NO!!"I screamed!

They all laugh...

Time:02.00pm
Location:Room 14..


Finally we all reach home.I head to my room..and bath and feeling sleepy all of sudden.She was sleepy too so..she took a nap then..so do I....and also...I on my laptop..and waiting my data finish when I sleep..

Time:07.55pm
Location:Room 14...

I WOKE UP IN A SURPRISED!!I saw my room was dark except my laptop.I see the time..it was almost 08.00pm and I quickly get up.My stomach were growling.I decided to had dinner alone this time but then..Wendy bought me food cause just now Miss.Landlady didn't cook and just pack.So..Wendy gave me noodle and lamb mutton.It was good...thanks Wendy...

Then...I continued my rest for a while and Uncle Jo tell me want to go out take a walk..so..Wendy and me want!!!So does Sumi and Ian.

Time:10.15pm
Location:Cheroh..

We all when to Cheroh and walk till home and (sigh...)...hard to explain..we all chat inside the car....then...she just slept on my shoulder cause we all had a long journey road.Then..it was creepy...and scary cause the road was dark.I just hold her hand...and I know I she will not scared if I am nearby...and I promise her parents word yesterday....

Time:01.00am
Location:Home and return to our room...

After we all reach home..I wake her up....Sumi and Ian return to their room..and I when in to Wendy room..carry her cause she looks very very tired.So..she awake and tell me to stay...so,I had to stay...but before that..I take my story books and my laptop to her room...

Location:Room 15..

Looks like I gonna sleep in her room again..and my head now feeling wanna rest and shut for a while....before that..I read a story to her..and she..as always..fell asleep again....(sigh..)..tomorrow I must visit my grandfather grave..and...when oh when..I should tell her?...Nevermind..I kiss her forhead and lay down on the sofa...watching her.....and good night..Wendyll....^^...and my friends too...my foster brother Fong,Riby and all of them...love you all!!...

To Be Continued....

Benny Liew........

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Family visit....in a great day....

Time:10.00pm
Date:03.April.2010
Location:Room 14...

Finally..I found my tie!!

Time:12.55pm
Location:Garden side...


I was walking with Wendy...for a while.Then..we heard a car honk sound from the main door.Uncle Jo greets them..and we both rush there.

Location:Main door...

Wendy ran to her sister and her parents.Her sister kinda tall,Uncle and Auntie kinda old..haha..I mean...they are...nevermind...

Then..Miss.Lanlady appear and greet them inside the villa.Then..Uncle take off his shoe,so does Mey Lee(Wendy sister) and Auntie.
Auntie told me that she remember me when I was young and I was a little short..==''....and Wendyll sister ask me that what am I doing everytime when both of us in this villa.I told her take care each other,study and many things.(Our secret didn't tell at all)

Time:Between 1.15pm

Then...we all sat at the garden side...while Miss.Landlady prepare us tea and cakes....and Uncle thank her and curious on her...cause..he never saw an 14 year old girl become a landlady.So,I explain to them...
Then,we all talk about our life here.Suddenly...Wendy told them when she got fever,I the one who take care of her...both of her parents smiled at me.Mey Lee smiles evilly on me.I just told them it was my duty to take care of her.So,Auntie told me to take care of her when they gone later....and I say"Sure!!"...and my face turn red.....cherry red....==''
Then..we all wanna had lunch.So,Uncle decide to spend on our resident.So,Wendy call Nick,Ian,Uncle Jo,Mui Mui,Ah Sun,Miss.Landlady and Ka Zi to go out with us.
So..we all going then.Luckily...that Wendy dad drive an Avanza..hahaha...what a luck...
Then..we all on the way to Bentong...
Time:01.50pm
I ride Ka Zi car with Nick,Ian and Uncle Jo while the girls ride Wendy's parent car....so..we all set off the road...
While we all on the way..Ian ask me is that Wendy sister..andI told her yes.He just surprise.I ask him..."You like her??"..and Ka Zi knock his head...
"You so pervet!"Ka Zi say.I scold them both to concentrate on her driving!!
Then...Nick was starring outside only..watching the green jungle and mountain..and I begin to miss her now..and my laptop too..cause...I FORGOT TO OFF IT!!!!

Time:03.00pm
Location:Bentong..

Finally..we all reach here....then..Wendy call me on the phone where and which restaurant should we go..and I told her.."Ask your dad...let him decide.."
And so..he decided to go this Dragon Restaurant...I was looking at it...and feeling fine a while..
I talk to Ian..that this is the one of the most famous restaurant in Bentong.

So..Uncle Jo told me..."How long I never come to Bentong?"
"Ask yourself..hahaha"..Nick laughed.

Then..Wendy ran to me..and hold my hand..and ran to the restaurant..I just said
"Waiiiiiit...."
I hope Uncle,Auntie and Mey Lee don't mind if they see Wendy do that.
Sumi,Ah Sun,Mui Mui and Miss.Landlady when in the restaurant and they told Wendy parents that this place is beautiful.Both of them just chat a while.Then..Mey Lee press my head and tell me.."Dude..you like my sister?"..Ooops...trouble!!!!
Then..I just tell her that we both just best friends and nothing....so..she just point her finger at me...==''

We order a lot of things and we all ate lunch.I saw Wendy parent's were praying before eat..and after they pray..we all start eat.
Then..Uncle start to ask Ka Zi how old is she.She also reply to him.He ask her is she working with Miss.Landlady and she said no.Then..he ask Uncle Jo about his life.Uncle Jo just said it was a remarkable here and also...that he live here since he was 25 years old.Then..Uncle start to ask everyone by one.Then..finally...he ask Miss.Landlady how is she working at the villa...and she reply it was fun and hardwork..and she told him also that she wasn't the real landlady and she explain to them both that her sister was the landlady...
Then...he start to ask me...why am I living here.And I explain to him everything about all of my life.When I saw Auntie ask Sumi life..she was terribly hurt..cause I can see her face.
After we all had enjoy our dinner,we all when to the mall for a while cause Mey Lee wanted to buy her things.Then..Ian try to grab his chance...and I told him better not.Auntie bought two pair of shirt and two pair of jeans to Sumi.I also feeling that Wendy mother had a kind mother heart.I can see Sumi face were happy..and I can see her eyes were glassy...
Then...Wendy ask me which chain is suitable..cause she also wanted a chain,tgged name like me.I told her..like mine one better...so,her dad were actually behind us and watching us.Hope he won't misunderstand...
After we all finish..I saw Nick bought the strangest thing I ever see him bought...an antique sword swallow him almost RM190..
He said.."Original arr...don't play play...==''

Then..we all set to go now...Wendy told her parent's that she want to sit with me in Ka Zi car..and her parent's allow her.I can see her smile and her both parent's too.
While inside the car,we all set off and stop by a durian stall.."I HATE DURIAN!!"..cause it's smelly and ugly!
Looks like Wendy mother bought a few durian...and it started to rain already...
Then..we all go home immediately...
While I and Wendy inside Ka Zi car..she hold my hand and smiled at me..and I felt something in my heart that asking me question.."Is she fell in love with me?"
When she hold my hand...Ka Zi fake cough at us..and we release our hand...at least she lean her head on my shoulder...hehe...==''
Not to forget...I gave my album to Ka Zi...and told her to on a song in her car...title:Il Divo:Unbreak My Heart(Regresa A Mi)

Time:Between 06.00pm..
Location:Raub..almost home...

We all then finally reach Raub..and it was raining here.Cold and fuzzy....

Location:Home...
Then...we all arrive already...and looks like that Wendy parent's had to go home earlier...and we all thank Wendy's dad a lot.We all shake Wendy's parent's hand and Wendy hug's her mother and father for the last day here.Then...I saw Mey Lee glassy eyes that she gonna leave Malaysia soon...and I don't know where.Her parent's told me to take care of her nicely...and I nodded my head.Then..Uncle gave Miss.Landlady an ang pao money.Miss.Landlady thank him..but..it wasn't she must thank...it was him...I he said to her.."Be a good landlady.."
Then..we all wave our hands "See you again"...and Wendy hug me from the side...and we all return to our room then.

Time:08.50pm
Location:The corridors..

I was returning to my room after our hot bath.And I head to Wendy room..and I saw she was wearing her T-Shirt and her..."SORRY!!!"..and I close the door almost like slamming it!!..She told me nevermind from inside.So..I told her a lot of "sorry" and I told her if she needs anything..call me...

And I rush to my room..and try to forget what did I see just now!!
Jeez...sorry Wendy...

Sumi were trying her new cloth I guess and Uncle Jo now go out and fishing cause once he told me.."FISHING IN THE NIGHT WHILE RAIN WILL GET A BIG ONE!!CAUSE THEY ACTIVE IN THE NIGHT"...I just surprised on him...==''

As I reach to my room....I saw my all data download in my laptop finish..I was relieved...and I guess it was my lucky day after all.I will promise Wendy's parents words.I will take care of her!!....and also...thank you.

Looks like I gotta go now...and maybe I wanna rest my neck for a while...hehe...I try to tell you my feeling..but...maybe one day I will....and I someday..I will...looks like the rain stops already now..

Benny Liew.......
Wendy...one day...I will tell you....and also I hope my parent's will come too..hehe...too bad anyway my parent's broke up...

Wake up in an Illusion...

Time:12.02pm
Date:03.April.2010
Location:Room 14


I just woke up at 11.30am...and I start to on my laptop.I remember last night I was dreaming of being down there again.Still...the card of triumphal within wasn't real after all.I scared to know that...
When I woke up...my back hurts cause...I drop down on the floor...on a solid wood "tatami" floor....(OUCH!!!!)...
Today I sleep kinda late cause I chat with my foster brother,Fong and Riby till 01.59am,my foster father,Uncle Peter till 02.11am and my foster mother,Ms.Anna Fong...till 02.50am.(Sigh...)...now...still feeling back hurts again....hahaha.....
I just remember that Wendy parents gonna arrive soon so....I better prepare now....and also....I have to find my tie!!....ahaha

To Be Continued later............

Benny Liew............